Everything your brain does is in the interest of self-protection.
Your brain and body’s job is to make sure you can take that next breath.
That’s it.
It doesn’t care about your happiness*, it doesn’t care if your life is a living HELL right now, all it cares about is you living.
That’s our survival instinct; that’s what kept us alive for 300,000 years so far.
IF you’re using porn and you cannot stop, then your brain and body believe that porn is essential to you.
It’s as essential as air, food, and water.
That’s how important it is to you. That’s why it’s so fkn hard to let go of.
Your subconscious is gripping it for dear life, like a pacifier it thinks it still needs.
So your job here is to teach your subconscious that it doesn’t need porn.
To show it that it is safe to let go of.
And you do that the same way you got hooked on it; you repeatedly deal with all that life has to offer you and NOT turn to porn.
The repetition of feeling stressed and not turning to porn.
Repeatedly feeling angry, lonely, tired, anxious, bored, happy, sad, mad, frustrated, overwhelmed, ashamed, guilty, embarrassed, restless, stressed, hopeless, disappointed, rejected, insecure, doubtful, envious, etc., etc., etc.
AND NOT TURNING TO PORN!!!
THAT’S HOW YOU GET FREE!
Now how you get there is what you need to figure out.
And you are doing that every single day, no matter if you spend 45 hours watching porn!
You are on your way!!!
Regarding happiness. Happiness is your job. Yours and yours alone.
Life does not give a F if you are miserable.
Just like you need to feed yourself, you need to make yourself happy. No one will do it for you; no one is coming to save you. You might have help, but ultimately you’re the one who has to make decisions to either better your life or not.